For one so small,you seem so strong My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm This bond between us can’t be broken I will be here don’t you cry----Phil Collins
12/11/2005
12/09/2005
Of course i get stressed.
Today i was told by a friend of a friend that I seem to be the happiest person around and dont have a care in the world, she gets this from reading my blog. i guess from reading my blog it can be assumed that all is grand and life is rosy, but alas it is not always so. Like everyone i have problems, money or the lack of it, work and the TOXIC people that i am forced to be around there. Health my constant worry about TLOML and the baby, family. I have unhappy days or rather unhappy moments like anyone else. I have stress, maybe i dont show it as much as other people but its there this constant naggin feeling that this whole thing is going to come crashing down.
Take for example office politics, in an office of four people you wouldnt belive the politics that is going on, i do my best to stay out of it becuase there is no purpose..its not like i am going to get a pay raise from it so why bother. But these fools feel the need to lie and spread rumours about everyone, example "that guy is on the take" or "that guy is tryign to steal my job" when all i want to do is work, get paid and go home to where my life begins. my life is not centered around my job. IT is a job. My life is centered around my family, my friends. By trying my best to live to that motto i realise that i must give my ALL to my Family and Friends not to my job, i do work hard and i do it well BUT that is not the most important thing to me. Thus alot of the work related stress seems to not matter so much, it does bother me but not as much as it used to. Things like am i the best staff in the company or am i selling enough of my soul so that the bosses can get more profits...they dont seem so urgent anymore. If my job required me to travel i would, if it meant that my office hours are 8 to 8 dialy so be it. But once the clock is off then i am gone and dont expect me to stay behind to cover your ass. When i die i want ot be able to say i spent all my time with family and friends NOT WORK. So thats how i deal with work stress.
Another thing that helps lot i find is my blog, it allows me to rant and rave but it also helps me focus on the good things that happened in the day or during the week. Because i want my blog to be a positive one i try and focus on the good things, like my dog in joyus raptue eating her bone, or my family playing scrabble together or even on my photography(someone told me my nature shots are ok but i need help with composition in the rest) which i really enjoy doing. I encourage everyone to have a blog, it is a great destresser. Most of the peopel that come in here dont even read my extra long rants but hey at least i know i have a venue to vent without anyone else being forced to listen.
With more then 10 hours a day including transport time taken up by work, at least 8hrs a day taken up by sleep that leaves less then 6 hours a week day on average to be with loved ones and friends or doing the things u love. 6 hours. Thats why if i could, every weekend would be a family weekend out doing something, Anything, but with family or friends. To me thats the best destresser of them all.
Take for example office politics, in an office of four people you wouldnt belive the politics that is going on, i do my best to stay out of it becuase there is no purpose..its not like i am going to get a pay raise from it so why bother. But these fools feel the need to lie and spread rumours about everyone, example "that guy is on the take" or "that guy is tryign to steal my job" when all i want to do is work, get paid and go home to where my life begins. my life is not centered around my job. IT is a job. My life is centered around my family, my friends. By trying my best to live to that motto i realise that i must give my ALL to my Family and Friends not to my job, i do work hard and i do it well BUT that is not the most important thing to me. Thus alot of the work related stress seems to not matter so much, it does bother me but not as much as it used to. Things like am i the best staff in the company or am i selling enough of my soul so that the bosses can get more profits...they dont seem so urgent anymore. If my job required me to travel i would, if it meant that my office hours are 8 to 8 dialy so be it. But once the clock is off then i am gone and dont expect me to stay behind to cover your ass. When i die i want ot be able to say i spent all my time with family and friends NOT WORK. So thats how i deal with work stress.
Another thing that helps lot i find is my blog, it allows me to rant and rave but it also helps me focus on the good things that happened in the day or during the week. Because i want my blog to be a positive one i try and focus on the good things, like my dog in joyus raptue eating her bone, or my family playing scrabble together or even on my photography(someone told me my nature shots are ok but i need help with composition in the rest) which i really enjoy doing. I encourage everyone to have a blog, it is a great destresser. Most of the peopel that come in here dont even read my extra long rants but hey at least i know i have a venue to vent without anyone else being forced to listen.
With more then 10 hours a day including transport time taken up by work, at least 8hrs a day taken up by sleep that leaves less then 6 hours a week day on average to be with loved ones and friends or doing the things u love. 6 hours. Thats why if i could, every weekend would be a family weekend out doing something, Anything, but with family or friends. To me thats the best destresser of them all.
12/04/2005
The kingfisher weekend.
So its been a busy weekend for me, yesterday i went to ubin. Lat night dinner at kingfisher, this morning Philip and i went bright and early to seletar camp to try and photograph some birds. No luck, we spotted a lovely kingfisher but i was unable to capture the moment. After a nice walk and a good breakfast at the kingfisher club once again, we came back to my place to meet up with Alison the kids and TLOML. From the picture you can see that THEY decided to play scrabble, i stayed out of it! After lunch they went home while we attempted to nap, but of course no luck there either. So we along with Mama Lucy met the Machado's back at the kingfisher club where they took the kids for a swim..when we like a place..we really like a place. (please note that a certain word was placed, went unchallenged by all and points awarded).Check out the second pic of the scrabble wars...they dont look so happy here do they! The kids were really tired after swimming with Michael falling asleep in his chair poor fella, what a busy day he had.
Aside from all this activity we decided to take our family potrait today! In was a total failure from start to finish, with certain members behaving badly. I shall not name names. Only the little bambino(seen here in a pic held my TLOML) was well behaved.
I was also informed that although i put some pics of the christmas deco on the tree, the tree itself was not displayed. Note the angel trying to escape.
The last pic was actually the first i took today, and i just wanted to show how blue the sky was, a clear bright sunny day. Today was a good day.
Aside from all this activity we decided to take our family potrait today! In was a total failure from start to finish, with certain members behaving badly. I shall not name names. Only the little bambino(seen here in a pic held my TLOML) was well behaved.
I was also informed that although i put some pics of the christmas deco on the tree, the tree itself was not displayed. Note the angel trying to escape.
The last pic was actually the first i took today, and i just wanted to show how blue the sky was, a clear bright sunny day. Today was a good day.
12/03/2005
What everyman should have on his desk
I am sitting here checkign my mail, chatting with folks on msn, reading up o nthe news and i thought it would be nice to show you a little bit of my work space here at home, I share it with Mischa and its a bit small but we are hoping to do something about that real soon.
Click on the pic to read the little bits i wroteWent(with Machado's and Friends) for a lovely dinner in seletar army camp, nice place called the Kingfisher club and it was execllent, abit expensive but the place is great, they have a pool, gym, squash court, tennis court, bar, billard table darts..very nice..and all set in a great place seletar camp. I reckon i may turn out to be a regular cause it looks like we are going back tom morning for breakfast. The owner(Philip's friend) says that the area is great for birdwatching and walking so, we shall recce tom.
Click on the pic to read the little bits i wroteWent(with Machado's and Friends) for a lovely dinner in seletar army camp, nice place called the Kingfisher club and it was execllent, abit expensive but the place is great, they have a pool, gym, squash court, tennis court, bar, billard table darts..very nice..and all set in a great place seletar camp. I reckon i may turn out to be a regular cause it looks like we are going back tom morning for breakfast. The owner(Philip's friend) says that the area is great for birdwatching and walking so, we shall recce tom.
Pulau Ubin
I took photographed this old lady at the jetty. Below her picture is the old malay coffee shop that has had a new roof
put on. And below that is the view of the island from the jetty.
The two pictures below are of a small jetty and building within the main village
I woke up today and went to Pulau Ubin, grey skies,(pic below is a typical st in the village) non stop drizzle did not make for a good morning of photography but i was in the mood to do something and as Mischa was going out i decided to carry on with my little jaunt. I wasnt in the best of moods as well but i figured a nice pleasent morning would set things right.
I have a long history with Ubin, i first went there in 1985 i was 12yrs onld and my brother who was in the army had booked an SAF chalet in changi.(left-was the clinic now seafood rest) It was a friday and everyone was out and i was supposed to have gone to school but i decided not to go, taking my fathers field glasses and with $1 in my pocket of i went.(Right-Typical village buildings) Of course it was the old jetty which has been replaced twice already since then, the boat fare was 50cents one way.(Left-Stage at the main "square") I remember being pretty darn scared, firstly i didnt know anything about the place or what to expect but i decided to act like i knew what i was doing and no one would bother me.(Right-Old ladies shop, new door,roof and well pump) The boat docked at the ubin jetty which itself has been replaced twice over since then as well and off i went. The first (Left-Mum, Alison, Megan,Baba and i took shleter 3 years ago lol)that that you will notice on ubin these days is the number of bicycle rental stores but back then all you saw were motorcycles literally hundreds of them and kids that looked like they were 10yrs old we riding around on them, natives i guess. (Right-We used to call this the Kongsi house, this guy had a pet monkey)You also had an assortment of cars and pickups that acted as an unofficial taxi service, they would drive these things around until the machines died and they would just chuck them in the bush. You would be walking along some small isolated track and come up vehicles in various states of decomposition.
Anyway back to my first trip, aside from the motorcycles they were dogs, lots and lots of dogs that were roaming the streets big ones little ones all over the place. (Left-Typical house inland, approx 10yrs old)To me it seemed that when i stepped off the jetty and into the village everyone stopped and stared, of course this was prob not true but hey i was a kid.
That first time i didnt walk very far, just around the village and a short distance along the road. I spent maybe two hours there, mainly because i was scared stiff..thought i was going to be attacked by a pack of dogs or hacked to death by some weirdo.(Below Right-House on stilts as seen from village) Two hours, that was all it took for me to get bitten by the ubin bug, over the next 10 to 15 years i was to return as many times as possible, camping, cycling or just to walk around. (Below Left-Typical road, used to 50% dirt 50% gravel)I became familiar with some of the old buildings and even a few of the people, i watched the island change from a rustic, quiet, clean place to a busy, some times dirty place where bike rental and sea food seem to be the mainstays of life. Lots of buildings have disappeared, the old school is gone now, the clinic which was open only a couple of days a week and even then only for a few hours is now a seafood center. Alot of the old small houses rotted away and returned to the ground. Sad? in away when things like that are lost they cannot be remade, not the same way. The old man(sold fish on tuesdays fresh from the sea) that ran the malay coffee shop in the village is gone as well, his wife is still there though i doubt she would have any recollection of me.
Many happy memories, of the guys of our adventures our long talks and long walks of campfires and maggi mee, of swimming, night walks, laughing always laughing. They say an average child under laughs 160 times a day while an adult laughs only 16 times, whats missing in our lives or as the song goes "maybe they have a better understanding"
(The asian-pied-hornbil, was too good to miss, pity i only had a 50mm lense would have been good shots)
All pics have been resized. some have been edited for the heck of it. i took some of the pics in black and white.If you notice any typos please email to darshansingh@changiprison.com
12/02/2005
Its a tangled web
Google news- some of the things we have in common with the states.
Singapore Hangs Australian Drug Smuggler
Voice of America -55 minutes ago
By Nancy-Amelia Collins. Singapore has executed Australian drug smuggler Nguyen Tuong Van, rejecting requests from Australian Prime Minister John Howard to spare the condemned man's life. While death penalty ...
Hanged man's last messageNEWS.com.au
Nguyen died ' courageous death'Advertiser Adelaide
The Age - Sydney Morning Herald (subscription) - BBC News - CNN International - all 1,270 related »
US executes 1 000th prisoner since 1976
Mail & Guardian Online -2 hours ago
The United States on Friday executed its 1 000th prisoner since the death penalty was reinstated in 1976. Kenneth Lee Boyd, a convicted double-murderer, was pronounced dead at 2.15am (0715 GMT) after a lethal ...
NEWS.com.au |
Voice of America -
By Nancy-Amelia Collins. Singapore has executed Australian drug smuggler Nguyen Tuong Van, rejecting requests from Australian Prime Minister John Howard to spare the condemned man's life. While death penalty ...
Hanged man's last message
Nguyen died ' courageous death'
CJAD |
Mail & Guardian Online -
The United States on Friday executed its 1 000th prisoner since the death penalty was reinstated in 1976. Kenneth Lee Boyd, a convicted double-murderer, was pronounced dead at 2.15am (0715 GMT) after a lethal ...
12/01/2005
Every dog has its day.
So i got Pepper aka fatty a nice bone today, its called BREATH-A-LICIOUS a functional dental treat for a kissable companion, we just call it minta bone and she loves it!! She tears through the bone like a wild hunting dog ripping a springbok apart. My very own little wolf. Just look at her face, i wanted to add captions but i think in this case pictures speak louder then words.
Family, Food and the Englishman
My mum had an old friend(more family) staying over for a couple of days from England, actually he was stopping over on his way back to England from Australia and when he gets home he will only be there for a week before he takes off for Antigua where we have more relatives! This is the second time i am meeting William and once again i enjoyed myself, its nice to meet people who can put the details on things that happened years ago. He knew my dad and almost all of my mums relations. IF you want to hear a fascinating tale, this is the guy.
Anyway he is flying off tonight so we went to Lagoon for dinner.....i am stuffed now...(i forgot to put in michaels name).Above is the food 3 mins after arrivng at the table.
Below, the same food after we were though.....not a pretty site i must say.
Anyway he is flying off tonight so we went to Lagoon for dinner.....i am stuffed now...(i forgot to put in michaels name).Above is the food 3 mins after arrivng at the table.
Below, the same food after we were though.....not a pretty site i must say.
Changing Styles
For the few of you that read my blog(you know who u are, bet you like the spice girls too) you may have noticed some changes...i hope you like them. I have found yet another way to display my vanity using my pictures as the background for my blog. I fear i will feel the need to change the look often. LEt me know what you think? Thanks!
11/30/2005
Friday 6am.
If things go as planned on friday morning a young australian will hang for drug trafficking. His reasons, rationale whatever mean nothing at this point. All that matters is that state sanctioned murder will be carried out. I am not in favour of the death penalty, not by half. i used to be but no more. My reasons can be found in some of my earlier post.
Right now in this issue there is a question of Sovereignty.
It is the right of any governement to enact laws that it sees fit. In a republic such as ours where WE do not govern but elect the people who do, we sign away the right to govern at the ballot box. And for 4 or 5 years we live with the descion of the majority untill the next election.Our government has seen fit to continue with this form of punishment so we must live with it until the next election when we can choose to use our vote to make a difference. For people in other countries to sit there and say this not not how a first world nation should behave is laughable. By what divine right do they sit in judgement on our laws and our nation. In 46yrs we have hung more than 800 people, since 1979 the US has executed 999 people. First world, superpower, policeman of the world, and does its little sidekick Australia say we are following some barbarian nation around like a puppy dog? Hell no. John Howard put it in perspective when he said " i do not agree with the death penalty but it would be hard to expect the Singaporean government not to execute this man when they do it to their own people"
By preaching or talking down to us they ownly strengthen the reslove of the government to stick to its guns.
Maybe some day we will change the law, and maybe it was going to be now...but these guys have ruined it, havent they.
So on friday, spare a thought not for a guilty man who is no hero in this equation but for a mother as she lives the cruel death of her son.
Right now in this issue there is a question of Sovereignty.
It is the right of any governement to enact laws that it sees fit. In a republic such as ours where WE do not govern but elect the people who do, we sign away the right to govern at the ballot box. And for 4 or 5 years we live with the descion of the majority untill the next election.Our government has seen fit to continue with this form of punishment so we must live with it until the next election when we can choose to use our vote to make a difference. For people in other countries to sit there and say this not not how a first world nation should behave is laughable. By what divine right do they sit in judgement on our laws and our nation. In 46yrs we have hung more than 800 people, since 1979 the US has executed 999 people. First world, superpower, policeman of the world, and does its little sidekick Australia say we are following some barbarian nation around like a puppy dog? Hell no. John Howard put it in perspective when he said " i do not agree with the death penalty but it would be hard to expect the Singaporean government not to execute this man when they do it to their own people"
By preaching or talking down to us they ownly strengthen the reslove of the government to stick to its guns.
Maybe some day we will change the law, and maybe it was going to be now...but these guys have ruined it, havent they.
So on friday, spare a thought not for a guilty man who is no hero in this equation but for a mother as she lives the cruel death of her son.
11/28/2005
11/27/2005
Dawn...buloh
Woke up before the sun did this morning, met Mr.Machado at 0630 we had an early morning appointment wiht Sungei Buloh. Which i might add i have no idea how to get too, but we found it pretty quick...so quick that the place wasnt even open yet. I didnt even know they had opening times! A number of birds, today..egrets, herons, kingfishers, an emerald green pigeon(i think),an eagle, jungle fowl and even a woodpecker (and others)whose call it turns out is much like a kingfishers a wild screach not a pleasent sound at all. For reptiles we saw two monitor lizards, one big malayan water monitor and the other a mangrove monitor with the very nice spotted markings. Mammals, we saw a couple of squirels and lots of homo sapiens. No snakes, no crocs and NO OTTERS..sigh...one day i am going to get the shots i want of these 3 animals...one day. As you may notice i only put 3 pics up, either my photography skills are going backwards or my selection process is getting more rigid i dont really know but i was most unhappy with what i took today. A nice morning, enjoy the weekend.
11/26/2005
Gone fishin'
So we went fishing today(this evening actually), the lads and i...another one of our little adventures. First we took a nice stroll along the boardwalk (changi) and enjoyed a firey red sky, i took tons of pics but alas satisfaction was denied me. Back to the fishing, i have been doing this a long and time and in all my years i have never ever caught a fish. Not one. But then the objective has never been to catch the fish , in the early days that was our excuse...people would say so you guys just went to the beach and sat there? and we would reply no la we went fishing. Nice to know some things dont fade with time. Since i have never caught anything i am never disappointed. Just two pics today, and not much to write..why? cause i'v gone fishin...........
sidebar-the sky u understand..but whats the connection with the mushroom? none whatsoever...just like mushrooms.
I was going the change the song to Louis Armstrong and Bing Crosbys Gone Fishin a fun song, but for some reason U2 makes sense ..more sense. alls well with the world tonight.
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