10 yrs ago i was 25.

So tomorrow i will be 35. The last real milestone i celebrated in terms of age was my 25th birthday. I never was one for celebrating my birthday, the past few years i always took the day off and went to the zoo, but this year even that seems abit too difficult to do. I always connect my birthday with my fathers passing away, he died on the 26th of April just 3 days after my birthday and for some reason it just sticks in my head that the two are one. This Saturday will be exactly 10yrs since he passed away. If i am unenthusiastic forgive me.
All i want to do is have a cigar in one hand a drink in the other and just chill surrounded by those nearest and dearest.While its my birthday tomorrow, its my father on my mind.

10yrs have come and gone

since that one faitful morn.
9 birthday's you have missed
5 grandchildren you didn't kiss
9 Christmas's come and gone
1 wedding. we played your song.
10 years of missing you
and wondering what Daddy would do
10 years of holding you near
10 years of wishing you were here.

:)

The Barren Tree

My gift for those who were once in love.There is always hope.

get lost.

I try to be positive. i try to be happy. even when the chips are down i try, but its not bloody easy when your surrounded by negativity. When people think your trying to take advantage off them when all you ask is for them to be positive. Grumpy, moody, rude, cheap, liars, cheaters, bullies people who feel the need to bring you down just because they can. People who go out and create problems, who refuse to see that there is more to life then being an ass. Few people see me down. its either i am happy or i am pissed and sometimes i am happily pissed. But i do get disappointed, i do feel pain i am not an emotional void. so to all you people who think negativity is the way to go. bugger off and just leave me alone. i got enough problems without your god damn issues crowding me.

There are people that can go through life cutting off their loved ones. i never understood that....but i am capable of much worse then just cutting you off. i will deny your very existence.

Oh and by the way if your thinking its TLOML i am talking about you can piss off as well.

green...and blue.

Caitlin.

Its been a lovely family filled weekend.

Ode to Mother.

Blair's Poetry and Designs.

For the blueroom irregulars. Please click the pic....i think it looks better when seen in full size..

u2 by u2

eden. this one was dictated totally by colour. its a first draft and i think i may work on it somemore..or maybe not.

My working title for the above was tree... i changed it to Autumn...but really it should be "An Autumn view from Outside"

the beatles.

for explanation of title see earlier post.

Mandela.

Two very different wallpapers. Below, i did this for a friend.Its called identity.

Sidebar-if you are wondering what the title has to do with the pics..nothing at all i am running out of titles and just taking them off the nearest book at hand.

colours.

Risque Post.

Well i haven't blogged anything in a while, i think this is one of the longest stretches that nothing new has come up. So just when you thought it was safe to read my blog bang! here is another wallpaper. Well actually three of the same theme i cant decide which one i prefer so i posted both....I hope to take some pictures soon cause its been too long since i shot anything.
Here now, my homage to Moulin Rouge. Rather risque i thought

whatever.

My ode to complete and utter boredom.

Lovey Dovey feeling icky.

I was fiddling around and did a couple of wallpapers for mungent and jj(jj seemed pleased:)) anyhow i did the one above then thought it would all look better without my feeble attempt at an arty bird. You need to click on them to read the words but the second one is a line i stole from Corintians..you know love is this that and the other? The last one is one of my lame lines.Lame but i believe true.
I really got to go out and take some pics.

Sidebar-Did anyone notice my two little turtles! you can feed them just click on the small window. Yes in case you haven't already noticed it i am going insane.

Rehash

Most of the feedback i get on my wallpapers are negative, aside from the loyalist who post positive comments. Mucho Thanks to you. My primary hobby is photography, it relaxes me and excites me at the same time but although i carry my camera with me almost everywhere its not always practice to take pictures so at night when the family is fast asleep(normally around 10) i start fooling around with adobe and make these wallpapers. IF you go to sites that host wallpapers you will see that i am not even in the beginners class! but i enjoy it and it relaxes me.And on the very rare occasion that someone actually likes one of my wallpapers enough to use it as their wallpaper i do backflips. SO here is a rehash of most of my wallpapers to date.
The Music is by Zero 7 ---Polaris By the way this is my first upload onto youtube.
Special thanks to all the brush makers who provide great brushes for free online!

Amber(as suggested by TLOML)

A Series of Amber tinted wallpapers. You might notice when i like something i like it ALOT lol.

Put a little vid clip just for the heck of it, i should have done it for all 3 wallpapers so it would not have just been 24 secs long and would not end so abruptly ...maybe for the next series...