Happi! Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAITLIN!
My Little Tiger is 2yrs old today!
She has grown so fast and so much i nthe past 24months i just cant get over it! Its a big rush when she says "daddy" i can tell you that!

Yes i rant.

Here is my homage to religion and what it has become. Instead of being something we hold dear and can be proud of, somewhere we can find peace and be safe all we get are flawed speeches from bitter old men who have lost their way. Oh and tacky souvenirs . Sometimes all it becomes is just one big poorly designed tourist attraction. Enter here, place your money here and oo ahhh and hey presto! your saved. Dont get me wrong, i am not bitter at the church i still believe in the catholic church and god and the mass and all that it stands for, but by god they don't make it easy on us do they. Especially when they send us men blind to their own folly to lead us. I have been told that i must respect the priest for what he is. Yet i find it hard to respect men who molest children, who father children and deny them, men who steal what is meant for the poor, men who abuse their "power" and so called "authority" if they want to be respected they have to earn it just like everyone else. So remember if you are a priest and per chance you fall upon this blog, in your chosen profession humility is a virtue worth learning.

just two images

Above a random picture i took and liked after i edited it, its kinda sad, scary and inspiring at the same time it all depends on your frame of mind at the time you look at it.. Sad cause the light struggling to keep darkness at bay in a fight that it cannot win....or..Scary cause its almost as if the darkness has a sense of maliciousness..or inspiring cause no matter the overwhelming odds still it shines as bright as it can. Ok so its 130am its been a long day give me a break.

below..the ongoing housing crunch in Singapore and the question, do Singaporeans want smaller homes.

Good music is hard to find.

If I Can Dream
There must be lights burning brighter somewhere
Got to be birds flying higher in a sky more blue
If I can dream of a better land
Where all my brothers walk hand in hand
Tell me why, oh why, oh why cant my dream come true

There must be peace and understanding sometime
Strong winds of promise that will blow away
All the doubt and fear
If I can dream of a warmer sun
Where hope keeps shining on everyone
Tell me why, oh why, oh why wont that sun appear

Were lost in a cloud
With too much rain
Were trapped in a world
Thats troubled with pain
But as long as a man
Has the strength to dream
He can redeem his soul and fly

Deep in my heart theres a trembling question
Still I am sure that the answer gonna come somehow
Out there in the dark, theres a beckoning candle
And while I can think, while I can talk
While I can stand, while I can walk
While I can dream, please let my dream
Come true, right now
Let it come true right now
Oh yeah

Recorded two months after martin luther king died. its not just a song its a mantra...
I dont care if i am a dreamer.

Pavement Art

HDB Upgrading

Trying something new.

Pavement

samples

My idea was what would some people draw of print if they had a chance, the first picture is just supposed to be a pair of sweaty hands. The second one is a pair of da vinci drawings. i call it "da vinci's conversation"

I really like this concept. Have not had time to take anymore prospective background shots but i do like this. i did some with a religious theme which i may post.

just some test subjects ...

Isn't it a Pity

Such is life eh, always beginnings and endings but the in between is forgotten.

George Harrison
Isn't it a pity
Isn't it a pity
Now, isn't it a shame
How we break each other's hearts
And cause each other pain
How we take each other's love
Without thinking anymore
Forgetting to give back
Isn't it a pity

Some things take so long
But how do I explain
When not too many people
Can see we're all the same
And because of all their tears
Their eyes can't hope to see
The beauty that surrounds them
Isn't it a pity

Isn't it a pity
Isn't is a shame
How we break each other's hearts
And cause each other pain
How we take each other's love
Without thinking anymore
Forgetting to give back
Isn't it a pity

Forgetting to give back
Isn't it a pity
Forgetting to give back
Now, isn't it a pity

What a pity
What a pity, pity, pity
What a pity

What a pity, pity, pity

.-.

WHY?

Because i can.

friendship.

You may have seen this picture before, i first posted in in july of 06. I was looking at some of my old post and came across this one. It just stuck in my mind so here it is again.

10 yrs ago i was 25.

So tomorrow i will be 35. The last real milestone i celebrated in terms of age was my 25th birthday. I never was one for celebrating my birthday, the past few years i always took the day off and went to the zoo, but this year even that seems abit too difficult to do. I always connect my birthday with my fathers passing away, he died on the 26th of April just 3 days after my birthday and for some reason it just sticks in my head that the two are one. This Saturday will be exactly 10yrs since he passed away. If i am unenthusiastic forgive me.
All i want to do is have a cigar in one hand a drink in the other and just chill surrounded by those nearest and dearest.While its my birthday tomorrow, its my father on my mind.

10yrs have come and gone

since that one faitful morn.
9 birthday's you have missed
5 grandchildren you didn't kiss
9 Christmas's come and gone
1 wedding. we played your song.
10 years of missing you
and wondering what Daddy would do
10 years of holding you near
10 years of wishing you were here.

:)

The Barren Tree

My gift for those who were once in love.There is always hope.

get lost.

I try to be positive. i try to be happy. even when the chips are down i try, but its not bloody easy when your surrounded by negativity. When people think your trying to take advantage off them when all you ask is for them to be positive. Grumpy, moody, rude, cheap, liars, cheaters, bullies people who feel the need to bring you down just because they can. People who go out and create problems, who refuse to see that there is more to life then being an ass. Few people see me down. its either i am happy or i am pissed and sometimes i am happily pissed. But i do get disappointed, i do feel pain i am not an emotional void. so to all you people who think negativity is the way to go. bugger off and just leave me alone. i got enough problems without your god damn issues crowding me.

There are people that can go through life cutting off their loved ones. i never understood that....but i am capable of much worse then just cutting you off. i will deny your very existence.

Oh and by the way if your thinking its TLOML i am talking about you can piss off as well.

green...and blue.

Caitlin.

Its been a lovely family filled weekend.

Ode to Mother.

Blair's Poetry and Designs.

For the blueroom irregulars. Please click the pic....i think it looks better when seen in full size..